Here I Am.

It's been a minute. I know the introduction to my posts are usually some excuse as to why I don't blog as much as I used to, and how sorry I am because of it. I know the few eyes that actually read this joint may be getting sick or hearing it, but I want you to know that I truly am sorry for being such a half-steppin' blogger. I'ma step my game up just for y'all.


I might be blogging a lot more than y'all would like me to, since I found a snazzy way to blog from my brand-spankin'-new blackberry. HOORAH!

There's been so many things happening in my life, son. We most certainly need to catch up. Let's keep in touch more often, shall we? :)

Oh, and by the way: hit a jigga up on twitter, if you have one. And if you don't, I'ma need for you to crawl out from that rock you've been hiding under. Lol.

http://www.twitter.com/iLLest_

Ciao!

Happy Friday!

Ugh, I've been sick with excitement since last night!

I'm working on a project, y'all. It's hard to keep it under wraps because I want to shout it from the rooftops, but I won't.

I will say this- never be afraid to dream. dream. dream. dream. dream BIG. anything is possible.

I'm embarking on something that's going to take a lot of work, but I know I'll look back on it and be super proud.

So, when all this ill shit comes to pass, you know y'all heard it first.


peace, and love.


don't forget to DREAM.

Well, hey blogworld!

I've been out of commission this entire week, a.k.a no school for me!
can't say that I'm upset about that, because I'm not. lol
I only wish it were under different circumstances,
you see- I banged up my knee pretty bad about a year ago
shit ain't been right since then..
the pain decided to pay me a visit sometime last week. My knee was swollen, couldn't go to school, went to the doctor- she said I could possibly have arthritis (sp?) in the knee, and it's not properly in the knee socket thingy. I'm only 18. Go figure.

So.. I've been cruising this week. Straight chillin'.
I wish I had something more exciting to talk about, but I don't- since I've been home all week. Holler at a jigga, though.

Revised.

Open letter. Free freakin' expression.

No, no fancy words. No catchy phrases. Nothing cunning or witty. Try again next time.



The truth is- I haven't forgiven you,

and I'm not sure I ever will. I don't trust you, and I'm not sure if I ever will. You have betrayed me in the worst possible way, mayne. I just want you to be clear about where I stand. I will only feel better if I get it all off my chest, you know?

Well, first off- You're a backstabber in the worst way. A manipulator. Someone who NEVER could stand on their own two. Spiteful. FAKE. Mean-spirited. You blend in with the best of them. It always amazed me how you could pretend so well. Hmm.

I'm glad I don't have to see your face, because it makes me want to 'url.

You've sewn such bad karma for yourself. Everything you've said and done will in turn come back to bite you on that bum of yours.



That made me laugh.



All the (undercover, of course) things you've done to other people, will come back to you, darlin'. You will get back all the dirt you've done times ten, that's just the law of nature. It was never in your character to do (BAD) things in a blatant manner.

That doesn't mean that you haven't done them.




In the final analysis, I wish you all the best, but I must say-
You are one of the most horrible people I know.

Open Letter

Open letter to you.

I figured I get all of this stuff off of my chest, because the truth is- I haven't forgiven you, and I'm not sure I ever will. I don't trust you, and I'm not sure if I ever will. You have betrayed me in the worst possible ways, and to this very day, don't take responsibility for your part in confusion. I just want you to be clear about my feelings about you. I will only feel better if I get it all off my chest.

You are a backstabber in the worst way. A manipulator. A punk. Someone who NEVER could stand on their own two. Spiteful. FAKE. Mean-spirited. You blend in with the best of them. It always amazed me how you could pretend so well. Hmm.

You're a leech. You hop from one person to the next, talking about how much you love that person, when in all honesty- they're just there to pass the time away. does that sound familiar?

I'm glad I don't have to see your face. I'm glad you're no longer around me. You're the type of person who wants everyone to be mad with a person just because you are. You are so JEALOUS. You'll do anything to be the number one, including making another person look bad.

You've sewn such bad karma for yourself. Everything you've said and done to make me look bad, will in turn come back to haunt you. All the (undercover, of course) mean things you've done to other people, will come back to you. You will get back all the dirt you've done times ten. It was never in your character to do (BAD) things in a blatant manner. That doesn't mean that you haven't done them.

In the final analysis, I wish you all the best, but I must say- You are one of the most horrible people I know.

Badass Bitches Vol. 1

When I call someone a "badass bitch", I mean it in a form of admiartion.
So- what is a badass bitch, you ask? A Badass bitch does things her own way, on her own time, and her own terms. A Badass bitch definitely leads the pack. They're beautiful, intelligent, and sexy. What more you you ask for? :)

So, as an ode to badass bitches everywhere, I've decided to add a new segment to the blog- just to have some fresh, new content, you know?

First up: Sheryl Crow


"If It Makes You Happy", circa '93. One of my favorite songs.

Sheryl Suzanne Crow (born February 11, 1962) is an American singer-songwriter and musician. Her music blends rock, country and pop into one mainstream sound, and she has won nine Grammy Awards. Crow is also a left-wing political activist.

Beautiful, talented, and she's an activist?
Perfect.

Pressing Matters.

I hope you guys enjoyed the video below as much as I did. And I truly enjoyed it. Lol.

Now, on to more pressing matters like- my life:

This is the first time in a very long time that I've actually enjoyed going to school, although I didn't go on Thursday or Friday. I'm enjoying myself, but I'm just SO over it. My mind is already on college, and dating, and growing up.

I just feel like a shark in this small little pond full of immaturity and whatnot. I'm just ready to be surrounded by people who are on the same level as myself. and NO, that's not coming from an "I'm better than you" train of thought.

I'm just beyond this already. I'm ready for something different. I wish I could fast forward my life already.

I know that I should be living in the moment, and appreciate what I'm in now, but I'm in need of something MORE.

excuse me while I go figure out what that may be.